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I have not been here for over a year. I had great intentions last year to go on a personal journey to enrich and enlighten my life. I wanted to have a place to go where I could escape the day-to-day and work on my spiritual side to allow the day-to-day to become happier and lighter and remove the stresses of the day-to-day. Well…the day-to-day got the best of me.   “Life Happens” as they say.  It was a busy year full of some scares, stresses but also a lot of joy!  I would not trade it – our joys filled us with love and appreciation. Then, it was back to day-to day and a bit of fear on my end of pursuing my dreams.

Day-to Day  is getting in my way. The mundane becomes a way of life and a hamster wheel. Change is harder to do as the hamster wheel does not allow me to get off and try.  Fear of the unknown and change keeps me on the wheel. Knowing what I have and the “sure” thing stops me from the “new ” things. My fear is holding me back and the security of things I once felt were part of my fear of moving forward are beginning to waive.  I had stability in a job that made me afraid to walk away to pursue another career.  I was told to start small and then walk away-this makes sense to me , however day-to-day comes back to haunt me every time. I get caught up in the mundane, put my dreams on the back burner, thoughts that someday I can pursue them.  When does that day come when am I going to be forced to give it a try to start small and grow. Today is the day!

My plan to turn the day-to-day into a spectacular day-after-day is to start my “new” path one day at a time.  I always say “I need to …” but today is the day for me to say “I will…” I will blog my thoughts to encourage me to move forward. I will carve out a small portion of the day that is dedicated to me and me alone! I will set forth my plan and my goals and with the help of my family and friends I will become what I dream of.  My day-to-day will no longer be mundane, but it will become a day-to-day of joy and fulfillment!


The Skeptic in Me

I think everyone is a skeptic from time to time. We often find ourselves in situations asking ourselves “is this is too good to be true?” or “there is no way this is real” and on and on. I think as a society we have a hard time accepting things that can’t be proven or seem unreal.  Maybe we are pessimistic and can not allow ourselves to believe in something or accept something we can’t explain. Sometimes it is a matter of believing in yourself or allowing yourself to have good things happen or allow yourself to just accept things to be true. It may be a matter of accepting something that is not considered”normal” to society. There are situations that a little skepticism is good so that you are aware of something that is not good for you or putting yourself in a dangerous situation. I do believe that skepticism can also be self-doubt or fear that is within yourself that needs to be addressed.

As I have stated in previous posts, this blog is intended to help me progress spiritually and become a better medium so that I can better help people. I named this blog “The Skeptic Medium” for a few different reasons. One is that it is whimsical as a play on words. There are those that are skeptic of mediums so I played on it a bit by turning it around that I am skeptic of myself as a medium.

I say that I am skeptic. I mean it more in the fear of failure and the doubt in my abilities.  I am a Type A personality and am afraid to fail or be wrong. I think to myself “What if the information I receive is not right. What if I don’t understand the meaning of it? What if people think I am not good at this. What if people think I am a hoax?” These questions go on and on to the point that I begin to doubt myself and then make up excuses that prevent me from embracing this gift that I was given.  It stops me from pursuing this as a job. Why give up the 9-5 paying job to do this if I can’t do it? All this energy I place in being skeptic of myself could have been used helping people.

I have had meditations and readings for people with some strange images or sayings and when they are validated I feel pretty good. The validation is awesome because then I know that I don’t always have to understand what I receive or the meaning of it as the people I am reading for understand it.  When I do a reading for someone and they are moved by what I tell them and feel better it makes me feel fantastic. Then I forget about the fear of failure or the skepticism in myself , until the next reading 🙂 I have had amazing experiences delivering the messages and am blown away by people’s reactions. It is just a wonderful gift and I know now is the time to really use it. I know that I will develop my gift more and more by using it. I have many supporters of me that are pushing me to continue moving forward and to do this professionally. I have to say that if they believe in me so much then I need to believe in myself.

I have recently been thinking about this a lot. I have come to the conclusion that I need to stop being skeptic of myself and stop putting pressure on myself and stop being fearful of failure. I do not have to worry, spirit will do the work. I do not have to try to figure out what the message is, I only have to deliver to the living the messages in the way the passed souls tell me.  I don’t have to be “right” as sometimes the messages do not make sense to the person I am reading at that time, but down the road it will.  I have had readings done on me where I concentrate so hard on a few things that don’t make sense and then after some time passes all of a sudden some of these things are realized. It is amazing because you are like “Whoa, wait, remember when she told me that?” So if I experience that, then I know if I deliver a message that does not make sense to someone it probably will eventually. I think that the more I believe in myself, the better medium I will be and that is exciting.

Finally, I can not allow fear to prevent me from doing something that I feel will make my life full.  I will start slow and build my business in the way that I feel is best for me. This journey is going to make me stronger and rid my baggage of self-doubt, fear and skepticism. I can’t wait to be free of it and enjoy my gift and be rewarded with the comfort that I will be able to give others.

How did I get here?

As a child, I had imaginary friends and believed that my stuffed animals and baby dolls were real.  Knowing what I know now, I believe that many times imaginary friends are guardian angels to us. Children are more open to believing in angels and accepting things they see without questioning it.  As adults, we try to rationalize  the things we can not explain as we can’t accept things that are not “normal”.  I believe that our guardian angels and our loved ones that have passed are with us and we should accept the things we feel or see as “normal”.

The first real memory that I have of seeing a spirit was when I was about 5 years old.  I was asleep and something woke me up, when I opened my eyes I saw a beautiful princess.  She had blonde hair, a long pink dress with a full tulle skirt, a crown with sparkly jewels and a wand that twinkled.  The colors were so vivid and there was a glow all around her.  She was just staring at me with a beautiful smile.  Needless to say, I was frightened and screamed and by the time my dad was in my room, she had disappeared.  I thought she was the Tooth Fairy and I was told it was just a dream.  I was afraid to go to bed alone for a while after that and I believed she was real and was really in my room.  I now wonder if she may have been my guardian angel.  I never recall seeing her again but maybe I just blocked it out.

By the age of 10, I was already drawn to learning how to analyze handwriting, and I was reading books on ESP.  I knew that I wanted to work in a profession that helped others – a veterinarian, a pediatrician, a teacher or a nurse.  I ended up becoming a nurse.

I always felt  the presence of others around me but thought it was my imagination.  I had many experiences of “deja vu” moments and certain fears of situations.  I believed that I was going to be shot at intersections when I was a teenager now I wonder was I shot in a previous life?  Many times I felt that I had met people or experienced the conversations I was having or being in situations I was in.  So now I wonder were these past lives or more of my psychic abilities developing.

I began to see spirits and presences became stronger in my 20’s. I had my youngest daughter when I was 30 and I had lost 2 grandparents while I was pregnant.  My grandpa passed away about 2 months before she was born and my grandma passed away a week before she was born.  When my daughter was only a few weeks old she had not woke up for her feeding and I went in her room to check on her.  As I opened the door, I felt quite a chill and felt someone was in the room.  She was in a strange place in her bed and the blankets were undisturbed and I remember feeling like my grandma was there and was probably holding her and put her back quickly as I entered the room.  It was a very surreal experience.  Another time I was feeding her and I felt a presence behind me and someone was patting my head and I just knew it was my grandpa.

One night I had a very emotional “dream” about my grandma.  She was so beautiful – the colors were amazing!  She was in a dark blue velvet dress and her skin was like ivory and just glowed – it is hard to explain.  She was telling me a few things that I needed to hear and explaining what Heaven was like and telling me about the levels she was doing to keep moving up.  I know that I had asked a lot of questions and received the answers but I did not remember all of it  when I woke up.  I believe I am only supposed to recall certain aspects of the conversation.  When I did wake up, I was so emotional and crying and this really affected me. This had a large impact on my life and  I know now that this was not a dream and that I was actually having a conversation with her.

When my daughter was almost 2 years old my other grandma passed away and my daughter started telling us things about seeing her. As my daughter got older she would see a lady in her room at the end of her bed as well as other “people”.  She was actually so afraid that she could not sleep alone.  She would describe things about my grandparents that she would not know as two of them died before she was born.

I began to focus on helping her to try to develop her “gift” and never really thought much of my own.  We went to a group reading with a psychic/medium and she knew my daughter had the “gift”.  It was very exciting.  We ended up taking a class to help awaken your skills and surprisingly mine really took off.  I went with my daughter as she did not want to go alone and I was able to “see” things and relay messages. My mentor told me that I had strong psychic/medium abilities and that I could do this as a job if I wanted to.  I began to meditate more and at first it was overwhelming as I only received symbols and images that I did not understand.  In time, I began to receive messages as a conversation or song lyrics and now it is developing differently again.  I have given messages to people and made changes in their lives which is very rewarding.

This blog is to help me further my abilities so that I can help more people.  My career choice as a child was to help others and I have definitely gone down that path.  Besides becoming a nurse, I also have trained and became certified as a Stott Pilates instructor and Reiki level 1 and 2. I love people and love talking and listening to everyone. I have done many things with my nursing to help others and I am always approached by others for help in their lives.  People confide in me and are able to talk to me easily. Strangers start talking to me wherever I go and sometimes ask me to assist them in choosing gifts or my opinion on things.  I feel like I am a magnet to many and am put in certain  situations on “purpose”.  I believe I was put here to help and guide others  and I know this is the  next “stop” on my journey in life.

Dream Reader

Good evening!  I am enrolled in the Blogging 101 course through wordpress.com and my assignment today is to address my blog post to my dream reader and also to embed an item into my post. I hope you enjoy my entry.

I set out on this journey to reach out and help you through this difficult time in your life.  It is hard to lose someone we love, and it seems like we just can’t figure out how to live without them.  The pain is unbearable.  Everyone always wishes for just one more day with them.                                                                                                                                                                            [youtube.com=http:www.youtube.com/watch?v=2UWx-shGM0g]

We feel bad that they cannot be here to watch us go through special times such as graduation, marriage, birth of children etc.  One thing you need to know is they are here and witnessing these things, guiding us and protecting us.

Sometimes we need closure to their passing.  Some of us feel like we did not have a chance to say goodbye, or our last words were an argument.  Maybe we did not say “I Love YOU” or we took them for granted. We want to know they are ok and to tell them we miss them and wish they were here.  We believe everyone will always be here and we just live our lives expecting them to be around. Some feel they did not appreciate what they had until it is gone.

In the big realm of life, everyone has arguments, don’t always say “I Love You”, and we all get “caught up” in our lives and take things for granted and that is how it is. When our loved ones cross over to the other site they see things differently than when they are in the physical world.  Everything is forgiven, they know we love them and they hear us say goodbye if they were unconscious. They do not want us to feel guilty or carry burdens.  If by chance you were hurt by someone who has passed, they take responsibility for their actions on the other side and this should give you the peace that you may be looking for.

So, we don’t need “one more day” to connect with those we have lost.  All you need to do is talk to them, they hear you.  Be aware of things around you, maybe it is a  thought of them, a song, a movie , sense of their presence, smell of cologne or cigar etc. Whenever you have a thought of them, it is a sign that they are with you at that moment. Take comfort knowing you are not alone and that they are not “missing out” on your life.  We feel cheated as they are not here with us in the physical world but we should be happy knowing that they are here with us. Isn’t that fantastic?!

As a medium, I have delivered many comforting messages to people and it makes me feel so good that I can help them. Tears are shed- but it is cathartic and people feel better after their reading.

My message to my dream reader is to take comfort in knowing your loved ones are around and talk to them.  Moving forward, everyday is special and should not be taken for granted as life is short. It is hard sometimes as we get busy and bogged down with stress and hectic living. Try to live life with no regrets and settle feuds and tell the ones you care about that you love them. I hope my blog can give you comfort and also help you to be positive, happy, stress free and live in the moment!  By sharing my blog with you it is helping me do the same. Thank you.

Mental Challenge

Today I am going to set out my plan to mentally clear out my head.  I have so many thoughts going through my head ( worry about the kids, worry of financial security, worry if bills are paid, worry of expense of redecorating home, losing weight, and so on and so on).

Here is where the Prayer of Serenity comes into play.  I am sure many are familiar with this prayer or has heard it at one time or another.  I feel like it is so simple but yet so true and really an easy way to live.  So many things are beyond are control and clutter our minds and stress us out that we do need to let the things we can’t change go. If we can’t change them, then why stress about it?  Once again, an easier said than done thing,  I need to concentrate and put my energy into things that I can change and that will make a difference in my life.  In case you are not familiar to the prayer, here it is:

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;                                                                                                               Courage to change the things I can;                                                                                                                                                   And wisdom to know the difference.

I feel that if I can say this every morning and put these words into actions, the things that stress me out and that I have no control over will be removed; and I can concentrate on the things I can change. Exercise is my second defense of stress relief.  I  feel so good when I exercise and it clears my mind.  Meditation is also a form of stress relief.  As you can see, my new commitment continues to reinforce my goals of this new stress free life.  Serenity and peace sounds fantastic! Join me on this assignment and see where it takes you!

A New Year, A New Me

I decided to start a blog this year to renew myself. To make myself stronger and less stressed.  I am definitely a Type A personality.  I let things bother me and stress me out to the point that I can’t sleep, gain weight, and just feel worn out and sad. I really need to find a balance in my life to not allow stress to take over.  Easier said than done!!

I do know that when I eat healthy( less sugar and bread – more veggies and protein) and exercise daily I feel much better and am happier and less stressed.  Meditation is also very helpful for me.  The problem is, that I feel I don’t have the “me” time to do these simple things for myself.   2015 will be different!  I will schedule in my exercise and meditation daily and I will eat better. I will allow myself to balance my body and mind and do the things I am meant to do.

Did I mention that I was a Medium?  I really need to focus on this as my main job goal this year as I feel I can help many people.  I have done so in the past and absolutely love being able to share my “gift”.  In order to really help people who are in need of receiving messages from their loved ones that have passed away,  I need to spend a few weeks rebalancing myself in body and mind.  This will remove the “clutter” in my head and the passed souls can bring me their messages clearly.

By doing this blog, I am renewing myself spiritually and moving forward doing something that I really enjoy doing and that is helping others. Welcome to my journey!!